Priscilla's final reflections.

omg. everyone is writing so long reflections..

for me.

pre-trip
i was real excited abt this ocip thing when i first heard about it. so i signed up super eagerly. then came the interview and i thought i screwed it up but i got in so yay.
i didn't think much about all those pre-trip meetings and all. i thought they were just a waste of time at first. but as meetings got more intensive and interactive and all, i found that they were actually quite useful in terms of mental preparation. and through the meetings, i managed to open up more and all too! the fund-raising events were really good bonding sessions too.

actual trip
environment: i was so not looking forward to going on the trip, mainly because of the conditions i've heard about and the images going in my head. but it wasn as bad as everyone thinks it was. All we needed was just tissues and the feng you! haha. and i realise i didn do much "sight-seeing" due to me sleeping most of the time in the bus.

programmes: i think the programme that left the most impression on me was the teaching at the primary schools. esp at wan lu qing. i find that the kids are really different from s'pore kids. i feel more appreciated there. although we faced some difficulties at lu chong, we managed to survive our days there. i've never thought that i would get satisfaction from teaching the kids, as to me, my main aim there was to build the road? haha. then the "road-building" thing was, to me, a lil not meaningful. i didn feel a purpose in clearing the roads. somehow, i felt that we were more of a hindrance. however, i felt the care of everyone in the team, coz we cared of each other and helped one another.

general: i enjoyed the trip to a certain extent only. to me, there was this piece of enjoyment missing in me. i guess a large part of it was due to my mum-sickness. i missed my mum alot and i cried everyday when i called home. so i didn really immerse myself into everything i did. but i would say that i don't regret going on the trip. i made friends. learnt alot of things through every single activity. and i eventually realised that i was never alone through the whole journey.

post-trip
i missed the team, esp the few close friends i made on the trip. i missed the simple life. and the kids. i learnt to enjoy the life i have in s'pore. and of course appreciate my mum more. i do regret not enjoying myself more on the trip, because i know i will never meet as wonderful a team as YELL.
though i am like not in tj and all, i will be back to help if time permits! yay!

yay, i'm done. its short, but its all that i can reflect, because to me, my deepest feelings in deep inside my heart.